Inspired

It's not often a certain movie or drama can inspire or relate to its audiences.

Two days of drama marathon later, I missed my flute. I missed those times in school when I skipped extra lessons for practices. I missed that passion that I used to have for music.

A mere sixteen episode of drama, I'm driven again to embrace even more things that comes my way.

A lesson to take home from the drama "Life has chosen me, and I've chosen happiness". I hope to bear that sentence in mind for a long long time.

Missing and Missing Outs

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Mood: Sentimental/ Empty

Have I been away for too long? I welcome changes, we grow along side with changes. Some of us change for the better, few stays in the same spot.

Changes, one of my girlfriend's leaving next year... I can't help but start missing her already. Since I might be flying earlier than I thought, it would be less than a week of us being in the same country before her departure.

Despite feeling the void, I'm glad that she's finally taken on the challenge to further her studies. It contradicts that both the sense of sadness and happiness can both occur at the same time. Sigh.

Mood: Shitty

Missing out on a buddy's visit home end of this year, feeling shitty.

Though I've gotten used to being away from friends most of the time, even more reasons for me to hold on to our friendships even more dearly.

Friends, they watched me laughed, they watched me cry. They walked with me, shared memories with me. I can't imagine what I'd be without them.

There are some whom I'd only acknowledge as aquaintances, they passes by quietly.

There are some who leaves deep footprints, and those I acknowledge as friends.

Missing out on the departure and arrival of two friends, I'm more sorry for myself than to them. I'm sure they'd do fine without my presence, but I can't say the same for myself.

Goodbye G, and D, enjoy your trip home.

내 생각엔 당신이

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Melancholy

最后一晚，丝毫有点伤感。

沉重的心情或许一阵子才能安抚。

窗外吹起带着雨味的风， 好舒服。

还没说再见， 我已开始还念。

悲 。。。


Finally its coming to the last night, the room just seemed to be overwhelmed with sadness.

Such a heavy heart might take some time to calm.

The smell of rain is soothing, it took my mind off the departure for a minute or two.

Though still here, yet I've started to miss.

Melancholy . . .

原来我不是个好女人‏

最近又被摸偶像剧给缠上身，从主角甚多的名言当中就有这么一段：

没有女人是完美的，
漂亮的不下厨，
下厨的不温柔，
温 柔的没主见，
有主见的没女人味，
有女人味的会乱花钱，
不会乱花钱的不会打扮，
会打扮的不放心，
放心的肯定不能 看。

妈哟，好想上吊。
小女不下厨，不温柔，超有主见，又不会打扮。
幸亏那头老牛没眼光看上了我， 哈哈哈哈。

那 摸摸偶像剧也给雄性动物来了一段名言：

男人嘛，
有才华的长得丑，
长得帅的不会赚钱，
会赚钱的不顾家，
顾 家的没出息，
有出息的不浪漫，
浪漫的靠不住，
靠的住的肯定是个窝囊废。

哈哈哈哈，原来我有俩个妈。(笑翻了)




Translation:
Recently I've went back to my drama marathon, extracting one of the many famous quotes from one of the drama :

No woman is perfect,
Beautiful ones don''t cook,
Those that cook ain't gentle,
Gentle ones lacks opinions,
Those with opinions lack femininity,
Femininist ain't thrifty,
Thrifty ones ain't fashionista,
Fashionistas isn't assuring,
Assuring ones are often ugly.

OMG, feels like hanging myself.
I do not cook, nor am I gentle, ultra-assertive and worse my wardrobe sucks.
Thank god Cow's taste isn't too high, ha ha ha ha.

The drama has a quote for guys as well:

Well man,
Talented ones are often ugly,
Cool-looking does not make money,
Those that brings back the cash ain't family orientated,
Family orientated ones are unpromising,
Promising ones ain't romantic
Romantic ones are unreliable,
Reliable ones must be a worthless wretch.

Ha ha ha ha, I have two mums. (PMSL)

Copyrighting

I believe I've never mentioned before, but since I'm sitting here while the boys are gaming, I've a void this evening for me to rant.

Yes I put my name stamp on the small lil corner of my photos, not because I'm proud of them, well not that I'm ashamed of them either. I don't consider myself a photographer, just a hobbyist merely trying to keep a record of things that I see in my daily life. Be it to share with my family or just keeping it and going through it one day reminding myself of those beautiful moments.

Right, here's the story to why I started stamping my photos, bear with me.

Quite a few years ago when I switched to a slightly better camera, we took a series of photos during a party. The series of snaps were circulated amongst friends, and just like a note in a bottle, we have no idea who else it floated to.

Few months down the road, someone actually showed us the pictures, the very same ones we took and claimed it the person who took it was someone else he knew. Despite us defending ourselves, the other party just wouldn't believe us. I felt like I'm been accursed... as if someone is saying that I'm a liar or something.

Not that I mind sharing my pictures, but I don't like being called a liar either. I tried my best to give credits to pictures I've obtained from sources apart from my own. It's just peeps out there that doesn't respect it. So therefore it concludes my story of why on earth I actually "copyright" most of my pictures.

In fact recently I'm in the dilemma of whether to stop using © on my photos or even stop putting my name on altogether, the low self-esteem side of me is trying to convince myself that my photos are not good enough nor even qualify for a copyright.

Anyone reading this post, please kindly give me suggestions please?

Feeling clever

or just pure luck. Finally managed to solve the lappy's wireless connection problem. Deprived of sleep din't help the fact that I lost my thinking cap, after a much needed nap, my tiny brain started working again. Thank God.

We've landed safe and sound in sunny Brisbane. I know I should really enjoy the sun while I still have the chance, since the weather Forecast mentioned to expect rain the next few days. But I can't help running to the nearest shelter, be it a lamppost, a tree, or even Cow... I was Oscar the Grouch of the day.

Sitting on the balcony now, sipping coffee while I blabber, the stars in view, enjoying the tranquility, blanking out the noisy aircon unit just above me. Haaa and the mozzies won't be expecting a buffet from me, I've got my trusty mozzie repellent on. I'm glad we survived the flight and heat.

More pix coming up soon. Far too exhausted to take any today, which is pretty unusual for me.

Despite Unjust, Time to move on

Given a few years younger, any injustice done to me or my family, I'd have blew my top.

Wine ages with time, and through time I've grown wiser to know that this world isn't fair.
Further pursue might just bring on more unnecessary headaches, as long as those dear and near knows the truth, it's useless disputing with troublemakers who point fingers at all but themselves.

Such precious enlightenment learnt from all the trouble we went through years ago, I do hope that Cow's next assignment (still searching) would go without a hitch. Whatever our next endeavour is, I really hope that Yumi's included in it as well.

Anyone reading this entry, I'll humbly ask for a lil prayer that our search would go smooth and well.

Moulting

At the dinner table, Cow found Yumi's fur in his soup,... went to the washroom and he can easily pick her fur off his underpants.

Yes, I'm glad its coming to the end of Yumi's moulting season, no more tumble weeds hoovering across the living room. I'm quite certain that with the amount of fur I collect throughout each season, its enough to make another of her.

That's the thing about having a canine companion, I've grown too accustomed to her furiness, finding fur on my lips as I sip my morning coffee, in my rice, wallet, the magazine I'm reading, on my keyboard, you name it.

Sigh, side note, Yumi's nanny is dropping by tomorrow to pick her up for her vacation camp. Oblivious to it all, the canine is snoozing away, not knowing how much I'm gotta miss her...

Changes

This space has been due for a face lift for more than a year, its only now that I've managed to get any sorta motivation to start some work. Am still trying to come up with a decent banner to go with it, and the pain of going through the previous entry to move all those photos that are outta alignment.

I've got another three days to complete the spring cleaning in amidst of all my errands. Hope all goes well. Nope, no photos for now (another load piling up on my memory cards), maybe later tonight perhaps?

Heartache

Password please, the usual

Just Today

Just today, I found out that Yumi has developed a fetish for mooncake.
Just today, Yumi ran away from home,... and came back after her adventure round the estate.
Just today, I finally added some extra touch to my two very important assets.
Just today, we've moved on, it didn't take much for us to fell for it.

But it's not just today that I rant.

PS: Finally manage to get online again after our last ISP failed us, haven't got the chance to thank Mr K for fixing my script. Thanks Mr K, ya a genius.

And Mr LKH, thanks for your identity lol, if not for you, I won't even be posting this entry.

My Dogs are (were) big babies

They are indeed.

Cocoa
My very first dog, found her on the street.
My family has the habit of reading the papers on the floor, spreading out the double pages making it easier to read.
Cocoa hated it when our attention wasn't on her.
She'd put her front paw on the corner to prevent us from turning the pages.
If that doesn't work, she'd put both front paws.
If that still fails, she'd simply walk to the middle and plant her butt right on our morning news.


Bubble
My second baby, the famous pinscher who won't hesitate to bite your fingers off if offended.
He loves to curl up sleeping beside us. We in turn became his possesion.
If anyone is to tempt to disturb his sleeping cushion (the human next to him), he will, deffo bite your fingers off.

Yumi
My new member, is the babiest outta all.
I've decided to start this post thanks to her.
Watching a dvd on the laptop with my headphones on.
She got bored watching me, hopped off her throne and tried to nudge off my headphone,... she failed and was shafted aside.
The queen/ Biatch (with a captial B) then walked in front, blocking me from the screen (I'm lying on the floor watching) and refused to budge. That failed, I started watching through the gaps of her legs...
Last resort,... she started typing on my keyboard.

SIGH, I've to stop watching and play with her... threw her a rawhide, which is why she graciously gave me some time off to finish this entry.

Dogs, they are big babies indeed.

Dog IQ

Picked up a book from the stores yesterday,... "Test your dog's IQ". Did a small lil experiment before I start going through the book, this is to just give me a rough idea of what to expect from Yumi.

Pre-test 1 :
Place treats in cup and see how the canine would react.

To be honest, I've high expectation with the result for this test, since she's so food driven and all.

Result :
She ran around the cup, barked, ran, bark, ran,... you get the idea.
Tired, she just sat there staring at the forbidden food, and started whining... Test failure.


Pre-test 2 :
Place treats under cup.

Well this might be easier than the first test I suppose.

Results :
She proved me wrong,...
The test subject started with running around the cup, more barking and running,... then she surprised me.
She attempted to dig her way under the cup!!!! *Speechless*

I'm not pinning my hope too high with the scoring in the next few days...

I've been busy

As Nana puts it, he can see tumbleweeds on my blog.

I've been rather busy for the past few weeks, went home for a while and Pea came visit straight after as usual.
Then Adam came over to stay for a day before flying back to UK. Our landlady's planning to sell her house, and her business partners and agent has been coming in rather frequently. Hence more cleaning for me.

The next week or two isn't gotta be much better. Heading to an endurance race this weekend at the circuit, more errands, then a possible dinner appointment when my cousin whom I've not met since I was like five. Looking forward to some catching up. Have to make a trip down to Yen's to collect Yumi's chicken for her barf diet as well. With so many things going on, I've no choice but to push back Yumi's grooming at the vet's.

Germaine's gotta visit next week as well, planning for a short girly trip to Genting. And shortly after, I've to fly again to renew my visa.

Sigh, why the rant? Well if I'm to vanish again, at least you know I'm not dead. Just busy that's all.

Here's some totally random pix of Pea and Bubble during my trip home. Nothing beats spending time with my two favourite beings.

Murmurs

Taking a brief moment to babble, Pea's arriving in half an hour and we've gotta go pick her up. So murmur twitter style (even though I can't stand it).

Murmur 1

Spotted this rather "interesting" display,...
the shop assistant in MPH might either have a sense of humour or she's illiterate.

Well I certainly don't wanna have one of those as a pet...

Murmur 2

Despite having a twin cylinder 1.5 metre water filter in the porch for the house, the quality of water that we've been consuming still alarms me.
As proven from the state of our tap filter,... gosh,... even after the tap filter,... how safe is the water that I've been drinking?
(yes I only drink water from the kettle after boiling,... but still I can't help but worry).






Murmur 3

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Last bit of energy

I'm now writing this entry with my last remaining bit of energy . The exhaustion accumulated during the past few weeks (especially the last) is now taking its toll.

Starting from senior's visit, to Yumi's operation, Cow's friend's short visit, and now the worsening of Yumi's wound. As for senior's visit, well I won't go into anymore details, those trusted friends you should have the password, go read for yourself. Cow's friend is a really nice chap, that's all I'm gotta say. So leaving Yumi's operation and her recovery progress, that oh boy I'll write an essay with my last breathe.

Right, to begin with my essay, Yumi was sent in for spaying last Saturday, well I'd no problems with my vet back at home, but here,... the vet just somehow made things worse for us.

If you'd like to see how bad Yumi's current condition is (that's if you have digested your last meal), just click on the link below and key in password "Please gross me out".

Show Me the Photos

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Day 1: Sent her in for operation at noon, was told to call back at 4pm to check if we can fetch her home that night. Rang up and was informed that she's still under surgery!!! . Fine, called them back at the time I was told. "They" informed me that she's still drowsy from the anesthetic no choice but to keep her for the night. I've strictly asked for them to walk her before the clinic shuts at 9.30pm as first of all she's outdoor trained, and secondly the drip during the operation might be too much for her bladder to take (that's if they even gave her a drip)... Called again at 9pm with the same set of instruction. Oh before I forget, asked them how's Yumi taking her experience being caged up,...... the caller on the other end of the line reply, "Oh she's taking it really well, in fact she's more eager to play than anything!" It doesn't help that everytime I called, with the self introduction of, "Hi I'm XXX, I'm checking on my DOG which was sent in this ...." and they would come back to be after 15 seconds of putting me on hold and ask if my pet was a cat or a dog. Cow advised that I should have told them that it was a goldfish. At that point, I was starting to get really worried.

Informed them that I'll pick Yumi up at 10am the next day (since the clinic opens at 10), lady on the line explain that the staff needs to clean up the cage before Yumi can leave so I can only pick her up at 11am,... WTF since when does the patient in hospital has to wait till the nurse and cleaner clean up the room before discharge? What kinda screwed up logic is that?
After much negotiation, they agreed to let me pick her up at the time I requested.

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Day 2: Went to the clinic at half ten, giving a 30 mins leeway for them to prepare for her discharge. Was asked if I wanna get a E-collar for her,... the counter staff shut up after my comment, "E-collar,... isn't that an absolute MUST after a surgery? So you are telling me that its optional?" Lady then asked me to wait as they try to fit the collar I just "bought". Fine, told them I'll be running to the shops opposite the street to pack some lunch. Back at 11am, asked them where Yumi's at and ... was told she's now taken out for a pee... ... ... ... don't think they got my instructions from last night, well, and from 10am till 11am,... one hour,... really felt like strangling that *BEEP* behind the counter.

Asked for a letter of proof for the spay, "Oh you have to wait for 2 weeks, come back in 2 weeks' time." Err.... do you need a solictor to write it for ya?

Finally I get to see the distressed canine. Outside the clinic, questioned the assistant if Yumi's nails had been trimmed as requested, her reply just made them look even more unprofessional, "Oh it still look abit long" Ya, underlying statement, "Oh *BEEP* !!! forgot to do that". She then dragged out the poor groomer and trimmed her nails outside the clinic. Not the groomer's fault since he hasn't been given the task in the first place.

One BIG mistake I made, asked her how's the wound. She got the groomer to lift my canine up. Thinking she's just trying to point to me, I din't think twice to stop her. Before my brain can catch up with my eyes,... she peeled up the med tape on the wound, liken tearing off a piece of waxing tape,... and it sounds like it as well ... YOU *BEEP* *BEEP* *BEEP* ,... do you have to go to such extend to show me? Speechless, I left as quickly as my wounded canine could walk.

Back at home, canine drank a whole bucket of water. Can't help but to be convinced that she hasn't been given food nor drinks the whole stay with them.

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Day 3: Yumi's doing ok I suppose, she finished all the food I cooked for her. Mixed veg, tofu, pork, and some kibbles. She's drinking alot too, But her wound is slightly sore. No problem on the whole.

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Day 4: Her wound isn't looking good, its swell up even more and it's reddened. Oh did I mentioned that the vet refused to give me any antibiotics for her? They said that being such a MINOR operation, giving her a dose after the operation should be sufficient... BULLOCKS!!!

Brought her back to the clinic, vet tried to squeeze her wound to see if that's any fluid from the swell. Nope, none so ever. The *BEEP* vet wasn't convinced, squeezed a few more times, now I see blood. The vet felt my laser beam eye and quickly stopped. Was given a course of antibiotic and some pills to relieve the pain and bring down the swell *FINALLY*. Kept Yumi under supervision to prevent further licking of her wound and most of the night she's alright. Her e-collar has been off since yesterday and she has been doing well.

Just as I turned my back, she sneaked quietly to the porch. Went out and found her licking her wound.
*Flash back to few months ago* When Yumi was having her first heat, she diligently licked and cleaned every trace of blood. Now with the blood from the wound *all thanked to her vet* she's starting to clean it.

From that incident on, blood just kept dripping like a leaking tap. I've no choice but to put the e-collar on her. With the device, the dumb canine din't dare to lay down, so sleeping was somehow outta the question. I had to cradle her like some baby till she's too tired and totally off guard, then gently pushing her to the ground with the head resting on her bed. But even with that, the longest she'd sleep was not more than 30 mins. It's gotta be a long night.

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Day 5 (Today): There's still a bit of blood from the wound, I'm starting to apply the cream given more often than asked. The bleeding went down. She's refusing to drink, eat and pee with her e-collar on. Nope, the hunger strike isn't gotta work for her this time. Beaten by exhaustion, managed to get force her to lay down next to me, her legs are starting to kick, good sign of her resting and dreaming. Sigh, I'm gotta get some shut-eye before the four-legged wakes up. Will rant more on her post-op recovery progress when I'm slightly more recharged.

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PS: I've just tried taking her e-collar off (had to bring her out for a quick relief), despite its necessary, I totally regrated it. All the yelling and screaming just to stop her from licking her wound. Putting the e-collar back was a nightmare, spent *BEEP* *BEEP* 30 mins to do it and not to mention she's totally freaked out yet again *sigh*. Manage to get her some treats and medication before popping the lampshade back on her.

Holding Back

the plan of my visit home due to a new toy, the thing which I'm not fectis most, would I get a chance of stroking its smooth white body? Only time will tell, the thought of it is making me all excited again. Fingers crossed it will arrive by next week, can't postpone my trip too much due to time constrain.

Collecting Dust

*Huff**Puff* And there's still a thin layer of dust in this blog.

Hasn't had the motivation to pick up the camera nor jot down my thoughts recently.
The past two weeks were pretty slow, and mainly boring to the core.

Supposed to drive Yumi to the vet's for spaying, battling the comfort of slumberland. With only four hours of sleep, we made it in time for the appointment, to only be sent home.
Her dear vet said she has to wait another month coz she just had her first heat a month ago. *Agony*

Apart from that, all's well. Finally clicked on the shutters again. Cow's wired up the lights for me to play around with.
Therefore here are the test shots.

Passing storm

Roaring thunder, drumming of raindrops on the roof, 'castle on a cloud' playing at the background. I'm at peace, staring into Yumi's eyes I see the contrary. I see fear.

The bubbly side of her has been overtaken by fear, loud noises startled her. For comfort and assurance, she now rest by my feet under the table. There's little I could do, quietly I sat beside her, waiting for the passing storm to subside.

针孔中的另一个世界

每當看見可愛或充滿美感的事物，不然地就有一股衝動拿起相機想把那一幕捕抓下來。

按快門的那份快感仿佛就把我帶進了另一個世界， 那個世界沒有任何人，只有我和手裏的相機。
身邊所有的人一瞬間都變透明了，那個世界好安靜。

我不是個專業攝影師，拍的照也不完美，我只是利用相機把個人覺得美麗的事物記錄下來。
不料慢慢地這種陶醉就上癮了。

我忠於原味，喜歡簡單舒服，
吵雜讓我慌，也這樣不時會被誤認爲孤僻一族。

不覺地我愛上了针孔裏的那個無聲的世界。

Whenever I come across an object that interests me, there is an impulse to pick up the camera.
The excitement with every click of the shutter, absorbed into the pinhole, it brings me into another world.
At that very moment all the people and hassle around me just vanished, that world is silent.
I am not a photographer and my photos are not perfect, I'm merely writing a pictorial diary.
It slowly became an addiction.
I love raw elements, simplicity and comfort,
Noises make me nervous, from time to time I've been mistaken to be unsociable.
Naturally, I fell in love with the silent world in the pinhole.